Faults in Sobriety: I’m Still Way Crazy

Sobriety is the absolute best thing that has ever happened to me in this life.  I know that.  I own that.  I spread the good news.  I share my story.  If it weren’t for treatment, AA, sober allies, etc. I would surely be dead.  My drug/alcohol abuse caused serious strain on my family, my health, my ability to function in society, my confidence, my motivation, my driving record, the list goes on and on.  I will be 4 years sober in August, and it has taken that length of time to establish myself on the “right” track.  It’s been a long road, but every moment that I have remained sober has been a fucking cake walk compared to where I came from.  So in life, after having been hung out to dry by my alcoholism, all other issues are unparalleled to the straight up shit I’ve lived through.

This is not to say, however, that other problems aren’t there.

Sobriety has pretty much been a huge highlighter that’s outlined all the shit I covered up for all my years of drinking.  Those character defects, as AA describes, are well engrained in my bones.  That shit is HARD to shake, man.  Change is fucking crazy difficult.

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